is it the lack of sleep or the irrepressible heat or that nagging feeling of an unresolved soul issue? maybe all 3, which is enough to make me ALMOST scream at my class today, but i didn't, Thank God for the little self-restraint left in me. it's one thing to discipline a child, and quite another to take out my bad moods at them. you know how they say just do the best you can, but what if my best kinda sucks? i really want to be a good teacher and role model to the kids, and it's difficult to know the best way to respond to every situation. it's been and continues to be a really rich experience for a newbie like me, but i can't help feeling i'm benefitting more than the children i'm teaching. sometimes i comfort myself that i can barely rmb anything from P2 so maybe i won't scar my students' lives or anything... i know, stop wallowing in self-doubt already right?
is this what it means to love my students?
honestly i think my confidence is on an all-time low, (i know, amazing right?) but it's not necessarily a bad thing
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