simple comforts

everything will be alright

we are only human

Z, i love you regardless, just be who you want to be.

cold war

the way things are going, it's as if i dated her and we broke up. for all her "manliness" she's really such a woman!!  2 females arguing and forced to work together is seriously a recipe for disaster. no wonder her life so drama. maybe i'm taking it so badly cuz this is the first time i've received such treatment, Z had to listen to me cry n complain for the past week.

i've been constantly torn between annoyance, regret, anger, frustration - and ended up doing what she does best: avoidance. avoid proximity, communication... even thinking about it gets me mad! but now things are settling in a clearer direction - acquaintances. i can't re-befriend someone who obviously finds it painful to have anything to do with me and gets all upset when i don't do what she expects. i mean, if she expected me to do something then say so! i may not have the same sense of urgency but if you wanted me to get it done before the weekend i would have. i delayed, but i churned out a decent piece of work regardless.

this episode has taken enough emotional toil on me and i refuse to stand around to get bullied anymore. i'll remember to BE OBJECTIVE.

i'm sorry

i'll try to be stronger. thanks for loving me.

self induced pity party

i
can't
do this by myself

i hate this

this is what they describe taking on the director's role as - digging your own grave.

it's not just your grades that suffer, but the relationships with the people closest to you, especially those not involved in the production. sometimes i wonder if it's worth all the sacrifices made. or maybe i'm just not that good at keeping it together. there's just no space and time for anything besides everything to do with preparing for the musical! it's just... too much



or maybe i'm just too dependent on you to keep it together for me emotionally. i'm a stupid needy girl.