i hate this

this is what they describe taking on the director's role as - digging your own grave.

it's not just your grades that suffer, but the relationships with the people closest to you, especially those not involved in the production. sometimes i wonder if it's worth all the sacrifices made. or maybe i'm just not that good at keeping it together. there's just no space and time for anything besides everything to do with preparing for the musical! it's just... too much



or maybe i'm just too dependent on you to keep it together for me emotionally. i'm a stupid needy girl.

hanging out with you makes me feel childish

i've been enjoying myself thoroughly this christmas weekend hanging out with my family and church friends... even though it's been a packed week, we had quite a bit of time to hang out in btw activities. i realised after spending time with them that i'm really gonna miss their company, especially the presence of my siblings. it's awesome staying in hall (and i miss Michelle already) but i miss home sometimes.

 i wish my one month break was a real holiday, but i guess its not meant to be-.-'' just filled up my new scheduler (thanks to glor sherm sarah fish!!) for jan and it's all trainings and matches. i suppose i'll come out of hols being pretty fit but exhausted as well. BAH. WHAT HOLIDAYS. it's gonna be one of those "tiring but fun" kinda season i hope. it sucks that i've to be taken out of track cuz i've IVP training on the morning of the IHG track heats:(  and it's not like i'm going to be playing on the IVP team either... this is what i'm missing 3/4 of the SNP retreat for?!! ARGHHH. 

post-recess week

accomplished:

- 2 computer lab reports!

- copied my timetable into my personal diary

- brainstormed (a little) on my lit essay

to be accomplished:

- lit essay for wed

-study for organic chem test next mon

-study for intro to bio test next tues

-jonah outline for sunday sch by thurs

-medley auditions for next sat

 

a hug is all you need at the end of a crazy day:)

Let's not get lost and cry on Sundays

We'll take it a step at a time

Hand in hand

this is my roomie melissa!! haha she's super cute and petite, and a hardcore anime and manga fan!!  was applying henna for her during our GBG (green block gang, the most awesome block in hall5!) mini oktoberfest hehe. it was fun, just lotsa beer n sauseges. the few of us went to hang out at some supposedly scenic spot, but apparently trees sprouted out of the hillside within a year and blocked the wonderful view.

ANYWAY i went for training today after a week of rest due to the sprained ankle. and WOW it was intense man, i ended training with a cramped calf (khai was like "see, the doctor say 2 weeks but you go n train then your leg liddat"). and i think i need to get new netball shoes! cuz i braked on the indoor court and my toenail jammed into my shoe and it HURTS now:/ but other than that i'm fine, my ankle's as good as new:) but i'll be laying off the heels for awhile to be on the safe side:) 

 i need to stop getting injured during training!!

nursing my sprained ankle

Part of the GREEN BLOCK GIRLS! that's my roomie melissa holding the cam:)

time to revive my poor neglected blog!! I'M BLOGGING FROM MY NEW AWESOME LAPTOP IN HALL!!! hahah but honestly the lack of internet access in hall the first 2 weeks of sch isn't the only reason why i've not been blogging, it's just that i've not been slowing down to think (yes, busyness is my weakness). obviously i've been forced to think cuz i'm stuck in room with my sprained ankle:( it's pretty swollen and i don't wanna stress it by walking around much, so i didn't go for lessons today. in fact i overslept for class by like 5 hours hahah. but i think my body's just too exhausted la. only my 2nd training and already injured:(

YES i joined NTU netball!! i'm really excited about training with such an awesome team, the training's serious n professional n FUN:) sometimes my head hurts more during training than in class cuz it's really skill intensive, but i've never been more excited about learning new skills in a sport i've played for 6 years. the coach is doing fundamental skills now but at a whole new level of play. it's like i'm a total newbie when it comes to training with this team, they're seriously in a league of their own. that's why i'm quite annoyed at spraining my ankle cuz i don't think i can recover by mon's training, and every training is so intensive on new skills, missing one would be a real disadvantage. i already joined late cuz it's by invite only. i didn't meet anyone from the team till last fri (an acquaintance from umpiring) who casually invited me for trials. i can understand the exclusivity cuz of the level of play, and anyway the netball circle is quite small. just that i'm not in the circle cuz i'm not in any club... so yea it's really providence that i met that netball girl in the bus on the way to hall! i'm really glad to be training again tho, despite the fact that i'm so rusty and noob now!! heh. but i'm enjoying myself thoroughly:)