red as a lobster

Last week i was at NTU netball training camp...

don't be fooled by the happy smiling faces, the camp was SO TIRING, it was seriously just netball 24/7 for 3 days. i even dreamt of training!!! for me it was as much of getting used to the culture of the team as it was about preparing for the upcoming season. i never spoke so much chinese in my life as i did those 3 days.

it was only when i met the SNP leaders for supper after we broke camp and realised how GLAD i was to see them and how much i missed being in their company that i figured how out of place i feel in this netball team. it's more than the language of course, i just don't feel like i belong...

hanging out with you makes me feel childish

i've been enjoying myself thoroughly this christmas weekend hanging out with my family and church friends... even though it's been a packed week, we had quite a bit of time to hang out in btw activities. i realised after spending time with them that i'm really gonna miss their company, especially the presence of my siblings. it's awesome staying in hall (and i miss Michelle already) but i miss home sometimes.

 i wish my one month break was a real holiday, but i guess its not meant to be-.-'' just filled up my new scheduler (thanks to glor sherm sarah fish!!) for jan and it's all trainings and matches. i suppose i'll come out of hols being pretty fit but exhausted as well. BAH. WHAT HOLIDAYS. it's gonna be one of those "tiring but fun" kinda season i hope. it sucks that i've to be taken out of track cuz i've IVP training on the morning of the IHG track heats:(  and it's not like i'm going to be playing on the IVP team either... this is what i'm missing 3/4 of the SNP retreat for?!! ARGHHH. 

christmas/exam blues

christmas is coming!!!!!!! and so are my exams.. which is crazy cuz it means i'm studying thru the christmas prep. well, ok, supposed to be studying. i'm not covering much ground over the weekend! and did i mention this year our church is running a ridiculous number of christmas events/productions?!!!! which is awesome cuz of the opportunities for outreach, but it's also amazingly taxing on the limited pool of committed people. guess it's really a call for dependance on God. like seriously, ALL the youth leaders are unbelievably PACKED like CRAZY. exams, camps, internship, work, mission trips.. those less busy with external commitments have their hands and legs in the various christmas events, so no one is spared.

RARR i guess in busy times like this it's really essential to slow down and seize a quiet moment to align ourselves so that we don't get caught up with the activity. and the trick is to find that joy during the preparation itself... which is not always apparent when your brain is so saturated and you feel that there's NO TIME to practice :(  i suppose the joy doesn't come from the activity itself, but the purpose behind it. things are so much more worth it when it's meaningful. so yes FOCUS FOCUS on what truly matters -  and i wont feel so bogged down.

and YES i will study because my grades are my responsibility as a student and i'm not about to squander my parents' CPF money to live as a student if i'm not gonna do well (at least decently la). BOOOO studying is such a drag :/  it's my weakness la studying. i'm so unmotivated. i rmb going thru a whole depressed pep talk to myself like before Alevels, just to talk myself into mugging for exams and telling myself it's not too late. OK so EIRENE LEE IT'S NOT TOO LATE YOU CAN STUDY IN 7 DAYS AND TAKE YOUR 6 EXAM PAPERS IT WILL ALL BE WORTH IT. peng told me a most encouraging thing which would make my self-motivational statement valid - he said "God can make 6 days more fruitful than 7 days." meaning that God is all-powerful and i should trust Him that despite me not devoting my entire life to studies, he can make my limited mugging time more fruitful than if i neglected all else. so yes, i shall trust that God wil help me to understand what i need to understand for my exams.... and it's not the end of the world yet.

aniyohaseyo!

just came back from shermy wormy's 21st bday party! (daryl's such an efficient photo uploader!) THEME: EVERYTHING KOREAN! it was a really nice simple dinner-then-games prog, with nice personal touches (our on nametags in korean, prepared slots for us to write on her bday card) and it was a small comfortable group la. like bout 20 ppl, and we had a blast!! thanks to vee's hilarious games and everyone being so sporting. oh and the food was surprisingly awesome! i didn't know they could cook so well (one of the cooks was my sister haha, which explains my wonderment). HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERM:)

tmr no sch cuz youth day holiday.. going to meet gwen at carl's junior at big splash to do marking!!! hehe. seriously need company to get me motivated, even tho i know i'll suffer if i keep procrastinating. must faster clear!!!!

the hard way

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

James 1:2-4

DAY 3

its been 2 days since i got the news of my impending doom and i've sent out 1 SOS to my church people, discussed it personally with my parents and sister, complained to most of my colleagues esp those sitting near me, called LL numerous times to mope even though she was having her last 2 papers and now she's celebrating the end of exams. after reading all the encouraging SMSes and FB msges, listening to the support from everyone else other than those who determine my near future, and looking at the situation as objectively as possible... i'm feeling better la.

despite wanting to be incredibly unmotivated since i'm being 'rejected', i've been making effort to be as BLAMELESS as i humanly can. i guess it's really a rude awakening:/ and about making effort in class (where it is almost impossible for others to monitor), thankfully my conscience and compassion for the little monsters are pushing me thru.

right. time for this new leaf of a good girl to go to bed so i can be in sch EARLY;)

taylor swift songs make me happy

i can't bear to end my day with a sad blog post!

so i shall tell you my achievement of the day: i spent an entire evening speaking to my friend's cousin from malaysia, who speaks only chinese, so i loosened my tongue and put my frozen hua yu to good use. impressive or what!! but what was even more awesome was how i managed to have a proper mini-conversation with that particular friend and her bro, who are usually infuriatingly SILENT. i mean, you can't elicit more than 2 syllables out of them each on good days. but TODAY it seems the bringing of their distant cousin finally gave them smth to talk about... i guess they found themselves more familiar with us then her (slightly) since they haven't seen her cousin in a couple of years and they aren't close. but the cousin is awesome, really friendly! she thought all singaporeans were as tight-lipped as her quiet cousins, around strangers at least. HAHAHAHA. 

NEWS OF THE YEAR

just ignore my bro in the centre ok. G and D are TOGETHER!!!!!! *screams madly*

wish u 2 all the best yea, i'm v v happy for you!!!!!!:D

but a little pissed that i found out via FB :/

it's ok yr forgiven! as long as you tell me the DETAILS on sundayyyy!!!

my favourite stalker-hug buddy-always smell nice babe;) and my favourite SUANEE!!

SOO EXCITED:)

monsters and koala bears

these are my dear mentees amaryllischankamin and nicoletanxinyue!

known them both for over a year now, and mentoring them for at least 6 months each. must say that it hasn't been easy but it's an awesome journey for all of us :)

this girl loves to camwhore and fashion is her thing. she uses more make up in a week than i use in half a year! v impulsive but also v honest ;)

ok not the best shot of her, we were in the train! this tall girl keeps insisting i'm always outgrowing her (even tho i've been this height since sec3) and never fails to show her affection to those she cares for.

 

they didn't always get along but they're alot better now! have a very funny love-hate relationship going on btw those 2...

really appreciate the fun and laughter they bring (sometimes drives me crazy too) and hoping 2010 will bring us closer :) 

Chat 'Loving

Talking to Michelle on the phone now!!! YAY i've really missed her:) Wish i could meet up with her more often but we're almost a country apart (pasir ris to pioneer!) She's very funny, we're talking about her turning agnostic - that means she's undecided if there's a God. It's quite funny cuz her new lepak gang is a chinese/malay/indian group made up of (respectively) aethist/muslim/waanabe-agnostic. Michelle please remember to send me your bank account number so i can return you the money you transferred to me to tide me over the christmas season...

Went over to Vee's to discuss the girl's valentine's event but me and Glor and Vee ended up just talking about ministry stuff and members and our own personal stuff hahaha so fun!! In the decided that the event should be held in March, that's about all we discussed over the yummy fondue that Vee made :D It was a really nice long chat:)

Ok my contact lenses are drying up, gonna clean it so i can wear it to cycle to school tmr!! FIT