i cry for you

my dear friend, i'm sorry that you had that experience. i'm not prepared to argue with you because i think no matter what evidence i may have, the head refuses to accept what the heart cannot understand. but it really did pain me to hear you say your stand so vehemently - it has become more than just a momentary choice but now you let it define who you are. my friend, even though you despise me for it, i pray for you with all my heart. because i believe we're all on a journey thru life and we need someone to guide us, someone greater, someone who knows the future, who knows us better than we know ourselves.

this is my roomie melissa!! haha she's super cute and petite, and a hardcore anime and manga fan!!  was applying henna for her during our GBG (green block gang, the most awesome block in hall5!) mini oktoberfest hehe. it was fun, just lotsa beer n sauseges. the few of us went to hang out at some supposedly scenic spot, but apparently trees sprouted out of the hillside within a year and blocked the wonderful view.

ANYWAY i went for training today after a week of rest due to the sprained ankle. and WOW it was intense man, i ended training with a cramped calf (khai was like "see, the doctor say 2 weeks but you go n train then your leg liddat"). and i think i need to get new netball shoes! cuz i braked on the indoor court and my toenail jammed into my shoe and it HURTS now:/ but other than that i'm fine, my ankle's as good as new:) but i'll be laying off the heels for awhile to be on the safe side:) 

 i need to stop getting injured during training!!

nursing my sprained ankle

Part of the GREEN BLOCK GIRLS! that's my roomie melissa holding the cam:)

time to revive my poor neglected blog!! I'M BLOGGING FROM MY NEW AWESOME LAPTOP IN HALL!!! hahah but honestly the lack of internet access in hall the first 2 weeks of sch isn't the only reason why i've not been blogging, it's just that i've not been slowing down to think (yes, busyness is my weakness). obviously i've been forced to think cuz i'm stuck in room with my sprained ankle:( it's pretty swollen and i don't wanna stress it by walking around much, so i didn't go for lessons today. in fact i overslept for class by like 5 hours hahah. but i think my body's just too exhausted la. only my 2nd training and already injured:(

YES i joined NTU netball!! i'm really excited about training with such an awesome team, the training's serious n professional n FUN:) sometimes my head hurts more during training than in class cuz it's really skill intensive, but i've never been more excited about learning new skills in a sport i've played for 6 years. the coach is doing fundamental skills now but at a whole new level of play. it's like i'm a total newbie when it comes to training with this team, they're seriously in a league of their own. that's why i'm quite annoyed at spraining my ankle cuz i don't think i can recover by mon's training, and every training is so intensive on new skills, missing one would be a real disadvantage. i already joined late cuz it's by invite only. i didn't meet anyone from the team till last fri (an acquaintance from umpiring) who casually invited me for trials. i can understand the exclusivity cuz of the level of play, and anyway the netball circle is quite small. just that i'm not in the circle cuz i'm not in any club... so yea it's really providence that i met that netball girl in the bus on the way to hall! i'm really glad to be training again tho, despite the fact that i'm so rusty and noob now!! heh. but i'm enjoying myself thoroughly:)

i need my exercise!

downloaded this e-book from samsung apps last night (when i was supposed to be marking, but oh well), chose a classic - pride and prejudice. yes, i've never read it (hears the curses from my very lit-y friends) but i shall take my time. the first 4 chpts are very witty and the book seems promising. definitely not as painful as my A level classic - great expectations! totally fell asleep. never will be able to finish it in like a month.

anyway, i figured that i really need to start exercising regularly again! it's for health reasons i assure you. i had such excruciating menstrual cramps today i could barely stumble to class-.-'' yes, horror of horrors i got my period on the day which i've the most lessons lined up for me. anyway i only started getting bad cramps when i stopped training, it gets worse when i'm not active. like it's either no cramps or it's almost crippling. warm water helps and i refuse to take panadol (long term side effects) but i think exercise is the way to go. 

OK now to get my brother to break that bike lock!!

fresh start

it's about making the best of what i've been given. it's about being honest with myself and learning from my mistakes. it's about accepting the tough things that are said and making the change. 

it's gonna be a fresh start:)

rollercoaster to square one

i want to beat someone up. moe person called saying that the Ba offer was an "error". WHO MAKES MISTAKES FOR THIS SORTA THING?! it's not just my education path but my career at stake too thank you very much. GRRRR. and now because of this last min oops i have to send in appeal after appeal to try and get a place in uni somehow so i don't get stuck teaching here for another year. it's amazing how the one place that made me discover how much i enjoy teaching is also the one place which i face the most discouragement EVER, particularly in pursuing this career.

now is the time all to live up to all those larger-than-life remarks about "eirene shows great tenacity" that my teachers have showered on me thru the years of appraisals. thanks cher.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH

whoever thought trusting God was easy is a fool (me). but having this security that He's with me is seriously the only thing keeping me from bursting into frustrated tears and wallowing in despair.

i'm sure there's a reason i've been put on this rollercoaster that leads to nowhere - well, at least i don't know where.

"I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!"

the hard way

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

James 1:2-4

i'm in love

i think i'm in love with my kids (my students). i keep talking about them and i think my friends get very bored hearing all my horror stories about how they drive me crazy, yet they're so adorable (in retrospect).

this week has been really tiring at work, having to report for work early for 3 out of 5 days really takes a toll, in addition to staying back for 3 hours twice a week to finish up marking. but you know what, i'm still bent on being a teacher. and i'm so eager to go to nie for my training so i can be a good one.

my poor kids, they bear the brunt of my moody, cranky, tired and stretched self. it really is energy-zapping, but i love it. for all the stress, irritation, even anger that the job causes, it's quite worth it.

MTP

MEET THE PARENTS.

no, not the movie (unfortunately). i really am meeting the parents of my students tomorrow night :0

SOB another LOOOOOOOONG day at work, starting from 10am remedial and ending at 9.30pm when my nightmare would finally be over. i can imagine myself rushing thru the presentation and trying to push the parents out to meet the mother tongue teachers before my allocated hour is up. but of course i can't do that :(

i'm secretly hoping most of the parents won't come for the meeting so i won't have trouble remembering parents' faces/surnames/specific family issues and have to promise each one of them that "i'll keep an eye out for your child". because seriously i only have a pair, and yes, every child is precious but it's true i don't and can't give special attention to each one. 

ok gonna add in more slides for the ppt presentation so will have more killed more time and to bore the parents so they'll be less energetic by the time it comes to the Q&A. hehehee.

DMSing

PMS (pre)

DMS (during)

PMS (post)

technically there's no break time to be non-hormonal and happy so seize the happy moment with a lady when you can.

cheers guys!

i made 2 new friends: ryan and gordon:)

 

honestly i'm running out of pictures to upload. but i thought these little guys were cute!

i'm seriously bruised from floorball! i've one on each knee and one on my left thigh and one old one on my shin near my ankle. it's the painful kind that i keep brushing against when i walk or sit or turn in my sleep:( but the most irritating injury i have is my sprained right index finger from my lousy attempt at a handstand (i asked ning to teach me, its for the gym component of my pe test). i'm pretty used to spraining fingers but realised its a first for my right index. it's such a pain!!! i can't write or mark or draw or grob chocolate raisins from a jar properly:( oh but surprisingly i can type just fine. 

heh ok i think i sound pretty whiney (must be from my monsters in class) but just to assure all those well-meaning concerned people who have been entertaining my whinings, my finger's fine! it's very slight, the sprain. will be ok in time for training on sat. maybe not for floorball though heh. cuz i hold the stick wrongly and use my finger to control it, which hurts ALOT. okok i'll stop whining!

 

 

i can feel my white hair multiplying

my right ear is blocked and it hurts when i swallow or yawn cuz of the pressure (according to DDK). ARGHHHHH!

have loads of marking to complete, stayed back in sch till 9 but could only clear the math WBs, now at home i've math and english WS to mark.... which are already super overdue! i think i'm gonna like set aside one day of lessons to just get the kids to do their corrections! I HATE IT WHEN THEY HAND IN UNCORRECTED CORRECTIONS SO IRRITATING

this is what i look like in class scolding the kids HAHA

ok back to work!

owwwwww

Talk about Monday Blues!! If labour pains are as painful (prob worse) as what I went thru this morning I'm seriously freaked out by the horror I'd have to face in the future. Had majorly painful menstrual cramps this morning, it was crippling, literally! I couldn't stand straight could barely walk. I stumbled to the fridge to find painkillers but couldn't even focus long enough to read the terrible handwriting on the pill labels. Yes it sounds like I'm over-dramatising but I'm NOT!!! GUYS PLEASE SYMPATHISE AND BE NICE TO THE LADIES AROUND YOU, IT REALLY HURTS!!

Well ok honestly I'm still better off than some ladies who get such terrible cramps on a regular basis, I've never had such painful cramps before. I managed to call in sick and took MC off work today!! I know some people think it's an excuse or waste of MC (because I used to think so too - yes, unsympathatic girl's retribution) but honestly I would have never made it to work and stood around the whole day in this condition. But I'm all better after taking the painkillers from the doctor's, and hopefully I can make it to school tomorrow to an awesome 2nd week of term! YAY:)