i keep drinking fluids but i still feel thirsty

went for a jog after work today, cuz my colleague sent me back so i reached home like half hour earlier than expected. and since i was in shoes already. aiyo. it was pretty slow and tiring and the ipod hanged towards the end (when the music is most needed! motivation!!). but.. it felt good to have my legs moving and heart pumping. i miss running! (and my super anti-running LL screams into oblivion reading that line) you know what my music is so not the go running type of music! it's more sleepy and emo and wind down type. zzzzzzzz. i blame the sister (i koped her songs)

one of the songs from my sis itunes, its not her usual sleepy song, slightly old and country but catchy!

link: Need You Now - Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories
scattered all around the floor.
reaching for the phone,
cause I cant fight it anymore.

And i wonder if I ever cross your mind
for me it happens all the time

Its a quarter after one im all alone and I
need you now
said I wouldn't call
but I lost all control and I need you now,
and I dont know how I can do without
i just need you now

Another shot of whiskey
cant stop looking at the door,
wishing you'd come sweeping
in the way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind,
for me it happens all the time

Its a quarter after one im a little drunk and I
need you now
said I wouldnt call
but I lost all control and
I need you now.
and I dont know how I can do without
I just need you now...

wooh oo wooh oh

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

Its a quarter after one im all alone and I
need you now
and I said I wouldn't call
but im a little drunk and I need you now
and I dont know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now

thanks for borrowing the gym and badminton books for me dad, so sweet!

i have red pens in every bag

haha i'll be thrilled if my students could speak in proper sentences like that!

i'm gearing up for a busy next few weeks cuz EXAMS are here and i gotta clear all my backlog and return the files for them to revise by NEXT WEEK. oh and there's block marking of exam scripts to do *faints*

next three days will be at least 10-hour days, cuz of courses and compo block marking *sobs*

have no fear, long weekend approaching! if only we were like France - if a holiday fell on thurs or tues, the middle working day (fri or mon) would be a holiday too. Think, if only we had 4-day long weekends!!

somwhere

 Over The Rainbow

link: performed by Ingrid Michaelson

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I've heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
The bluebirds fly so high
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then oh why can't I

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
The Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then oh why can't I
Why then oh why can't I

taylor swift songs make me happy

i can't bear to end my day with a sad blog post!

so i shall tell you my achievement of the day: i spent an entire evening speaking to my friend's cousin from malaysia, who speaks only chinese, so i loosened my tongue and put my frozen hua yu to good use. impressive or what!! but what was even more awesome was how i managed to have a proper mini-conversation with that particular friend and her bro, who are usually infuriatingly SILENT. i mean, you can't elicit more than 2 syllables out of them each on good days. but TODAY it seems the bringing of their distant cousin finally gave them smth to talk about... i guess they found themselves more familiar with us then her (slightly) since they haven't seen her cousin in a couple of years and they aren't close. but the cousin is awesome, really friendly! she thought all singaporeans were as tight-lipped as her quiet cousins, around strangers at least. HAHAHAHA. 

i'm sorry

i should've held my tongue. 

....Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up. ...Be careful, however, that the exercise of your freedom does not become a stumbling block to the weak.

-1 Cor 8:1,9

finally, the weekend!

everyone's getting a Tumblr! ok i admit, it does look kinda cool and the templates i've seen on my friends' blogs are pretty seamless n hip and less sec sch kiddy than my own blog.. but i'm v proud of how maany posts i've chalked up here already!! so nope i'm not gonna burden my brain with figuring out new blog stuff (and blogspot heaves a sigh of relief).

ok this post is gonna be kinda crappy cuz i havent showered and i feel sticky and gross and its the 3rd night in a row i'm staying up. let me just VENT out my weekend to-do list to make myself feel better (or motivate me to do what i have to rather than watch Grey's Anatomy Season 5 which my sis rented)

i refuse to upload a picture of everyone in scrubs (although that's what they're usually in) cuz seriously no one looks good in scrubs! and only the docs in the shows look cool in those labcoats, not nerdy.

ok, to-do list!

1. STRESS lesson for Youthbeat (i know, appropriate right)
2. mark Math WB 20 pages x 30 books (YES, backlog)
3. send in my weekly lesson plan (the first of many attempts to be more professional)

hmmm. ok i'll get to work now. after my shower:) toodles!

ADD OIL

my juniors are having their first match for their a div netball nationals TODAY!

it really means alot to them. they've been eating breathing and living netball the past year and a half...

as usual, the draw wasn't too great (VJ always gets the TOUGHEST group in the draw, i'm not exaggerating). sometimes i think "they've already been thru enough dram, just let them get a good draw at least!"

but i think its meant to be. it has to be a fight to the end. i mean, there's no time for them to slack or be complacent or lose confidence. it HAS to be their BEST every time they step on court.

ya'll better take care! no room for error on or off the court. that being said, do enjoy the game! and the feeling of playing together:) it's what you rmb at the end of the whole saga, so make it worth remembering.

JIA YO

and i wanna wish you well

1. prep lesson on stress for YouthBeat
2. mark compo book so they can do another one
3. mark math WB so they can do corrections before i start the new topic on Length
4. think about what to wear to animal farm the play
5. pray very hard about the people that have been bothering me
6. pray very very hard for myself
7. sleep (early)

usually can't stay emo for long

ok ALERT to MICHELLE ANN ROZARIO that the following post talks about GOD. (never thought you'd see your name in the same sentence as His right?)

Breathe On Me Now - Kathryn Scott (link!)

When my soul has cried its tears
And my heart begins to faint
Will You draw near
Will You meet with me

When my days are filled with longing
And my spirit groans and waits
Will You draw near
Will You meet with me

I'm calling and waiting
Your presence Lord is life to me

Breathe on me now as I bow down
I'm desperate Lord for more of You
Come satisfy until I
Am even more in need of You

When my dreams have been forgotten
And my hope begins to fade
Will You draw near
Will You meet with me

When my days are filled with searching
And my strength has given way
Will You draw near
Will You meet with me 

i immediately felt it when i was sincerely replying a friend bout how i was doing. i mean i'm alright, but then i started thinking about the stuff that's happened the past weekends and how i've been avoiding even thinking about it, about THEM. and then i thought what a lousy job i've been doing. then i felt emo and started searching for really emo songs on my sister's playlist (HAHA says alot bout her). but somehow emo songs are always about heartbreak and lost love etc, which isn't what i'm emoing about! 

then i found this song and thought, maybe, what i was upset about wasn't the heart of the matter. i feel insecure and useless and unworthy and dumb BUT i figured the REAL issue is how i've been casually putting off meeting up with the ONE person who can make me feel loved and secure and useful and able. and i guess the distance has kinda taken a toll, i can feel the hunger pangs and gastric juices and weakening of... my spirit. i'm talking about that overwhelming emptiness that comes when you put off being distracted for awhile.. and BAM! it hits you, then washes over you and you scramble for the emo music to distract you again.

so as uncomfortable the song lyrics may be to some, this is the song that is appropriate for my emo-ness this time. its the only type of emo-ness that REALLY affects me you know...

Will You draw near
Will You meet with me

hear me!

http://www.mysoju.com/hear-me/

watch this taiwanese movie! it will melt your heart. besides the typical sweetness, this show has like 90% of its dialogue in sign language! very cool. silence is powerful;)

i'm in love

i think i'm in love with my kids (my students). i keep talking about them and i think my friends get very bored hearing all my horror stories about how they drive me crazy, yet they're so adorable (in retrospect).

this week has been really tiring at work, having to report for work early for 3 out of 5 days really takes a toll, in addition to staying back for 3 hours twice a week to finish up marking. but you know what, i'm still bent on being a teacher. and i'm so eager to go to nie for my training so i can be a good one.

my poor kids, they bear the brunt of my moody, cranky, tired and stretched self. it really is energy-zapping, but i love it. for all the stress, irritation, even anger that the job causes, it's quite worth it.

still a kid

shows which i wouldn't change the channel to another if it were showing:

1. Ben 10 Alien Force
2. Teen Titans
3. Spongebob Squarepants
4. Hannah Montana

Evidently a loyal okto fan...

things i'd stay up late for:

1. just because i don't have to wake up for work the next day (i'd be watching a mio home movie or reading manga!)
2. reading a good book
3. blogging
4. facebook
5. marking (this comes only with extreme stress or tremendous will-power or having LL to keep me company on the phone)

know what, they all aren't good reasons to stay up, cuz it makes me cranky and there's always things for me to do in the day which takes energy and i don't ever have more than enough sleep. well, rarely anyway. night then!

it gets so humid when it rains

Maybe
 I don't want to be the first to let it go
But I know, I know, I know
If you have the last hands that I want to hold
Then I know I've got to let them go

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
The only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back

hear Ingrid Michaelson's amazing vocals and more quirky sweetly sad songs at 
http://www.ingridmichaelson.com/music/lyrics/ 

NEWS OF THE YEAR

just ignore my bro in the centre ok. G and D are TOGETHER!!!!!! *screams madly*

wish u 2 all the best yea, i'm v v happy for you!!!!!!:D

but a little pissed that i found out via FB :/

it's ok yr forgiven! as long as you tell me the DETAILS on sundayyyy!!!

my favourite stalker-hug buddy-always smell nice babe;) and my favourite SUANEE!!

SOO EXCITED:)

just an ordinary day

to do:

1. mark math WS
2. mark math WB
3. mark english compo
4. drench all the books i haven't marked from Term 1 with red pen ink
5. letter informing parents about classroom syllabus for T2
6. comments for students for report book
7. subject allocation thingy (some form teacher admin)
8. prepare for psalm appreciation night!
9. clear my room floor of clothes
10. shower
11. pray
12. sleep

i think i'll start somewhere from the bottom:P

oh today my student asked me "miss lee what is 'bored'?" and for once i found that i couldnt explain it in simpler english, i actually resorted to using chinese. dunno whether to be annoyed at my lousy walking dictionary skills or be proud of the fact that i used my mother tongue and was understood. or in my students' words dunno whether to be "happy or sad" - cuz that's the only 2 human emotions in their vocabulary. "how do you think she felt when the boy played a trick on her?" "sad" "why do you think the boy decided to trick her?" "he felt happy". i must admit to rolling my eyes at my students. i'm sure you empathise.

young n old

i know it sounds silly, but i miss talking to guys my age (i know, why not girls right? cuz it's more stressful talking to girls, unless its my LL). it's a different level of mindless intelligent banter that you forget the next day but there's a carefree quality that you only get by chatting to peers, or people who don't expect you to be younger or older, who don't look up or down to you, who don't care about age or experience or capability.

it's different talking in the workplace, where at the back of everyone's mind is "i haven't finished marking this!" or "i bet my students are gonna tear the classroom down if i don't get there in a jiffy" (okay so that's just me, i dunno if it's a common train of thought)

thank God that i have caring, considerate and professional colleagues. i think its the common bond of suffering that we share that makes us look out for each other. i really appreciate them, but it's different hanging out with peers where you can be dumb and childish without being thought of as dumb and childish. i'm more reserved in school because everyone is older - in age and mindset.

okay one day i shall blog about my teaching experience, i promise it won't be merely complaining about the admin and the marking! there's so much i've learnt;)

anyway everytime i go to NIE for my PPT i always get this excited nervous hopeful feeling, like i'm supposed to be here! i'll be a uni student soon! the fun the friends the feeling of being young and devoid of responsibility. i just can't wait...

the value of sleep

sleeplessness makes me cranky, messes up my body clock n systems, adds to my number of unsquishable white heads (fyi for the idiot- white head=mini dried up pimple),  makes me BINGE like crazy, and makes me so muddle-headed that i can lose an important piece of paper that was entrusted to me on sunday when i was carrying ridiculous number of bags and stuff so i don't know where i put the paper. D:

but sleeplessness, for one night at least, is a worthy price to pay for my efforts to scale the unending mountain of MARKING i have to clear, slowly but surely. who knew teachers had backlog?

on MC

my mum was right. you can't go without enough rest and expect to be in the pink of health. i guess i need to be more responsible about taking care of myself! :/ 

sometimes my mum gives me advice which i tend to ignore, like "cut down your social activities, come home early and rest", but now i know i should heed advice coming from a true busy bee. i think my siblings n i inherited the "busy gene" from my mum, we all like to dip our hands into so many activities and have a hundred commitments. i hope we also inherited the ability to handle big projects and tons of stress from our dad! haha i know i got the "watch tv mindlessly" habit from him (prob to destress)

on other news, i failed my PPT (the PE test i took recently). sometimes i think they fail people on purpose so they have to take it a few times and pay more. but anyway it was a marked improvement! i passed every station at least, but i missed the passing grade by one. i'm actually pleasantly surprised cuz i thought i'd do worse, so i'm quite on about taking the May test. just that i need to schedule time to train for it!

k i'm gonna sleep early to prep for a long day at sch tmr! silly of me to wanna go back even tho i've MC for tmr too, but i feel bad for leaving my kids with funny relief teachers.