hanging out with you makes me feel childish

i've been enjoying myself thoroughly this christmas weekend hanging out with my family and church friends... even though it's been a packed week, we had quite a bit of time to hang out in btw activities. i realised after spending time with them that i'm really gonna miss their company, especially the presence of my siblings. it's awesome staying in hall (and i miss Michelle already) but i miss home sometimes.

 i wish my one month break was a real holiday, but i guess its not meant to be-.-'' just filled up my new scheduler (thanks to glor sherm sarah fish!!) for jan and it's all trainings and matches. i suppose i'll come out of hols being pretty fit but exhausted as well. BAH. WHAT HOLIDAYS. it's gonna be one of those "tiring but fun" kinda season i hope. it sucks that i've to be taken out of track cuz i've IVP training on the morning of the IHG track heats:(  and it's not like i'm going to be playing on the IVP team either... this is what i'm missing 3/4 of the SNP retreat for?!! ARGHHH. 

4 more days!!

THE.END.IS.NEAR.

but first i need to do a major cleanup of my workdesk, which means clearing a lot of chucked away backlog!! BOO :(

anyway the impossible happened as another potentially major thing may happen in my last week of school, to my class -.-''  my student has suspected HFMD (handfootmouth disease - who's the genius that named it i wonder) but hasn't been diagnosed officially so can't call the crackdown yet. like evacuate n sterilize the classroom... sigh and i'll be telling my students after their test this tues that i'll be gone next week, so i hope they take it well:)

today my sister said a v sweet and funnily mushy thing while we were changing into home clothes - she pulled out the same nightie which i was wearing (yes, we have matching nightgowns, thanks to my grandma who lovingly sews hideous yet incredibly comfy nightdresses for us) and she went "who's gonna wear the same nightie as me when you're gone?" AHHAHAHAH.

oh well. i'm not looking forward to the massive cleanup i'll prob need to do when i move in on sunday... 

but there's the wonderful weekend first! my only break in between schools:)

YEAA looking forward to fri's staff dinner!!!

sisterly love

one of the things i'll miss while staying in hall - my sister's presence and our night chats...

wish we could spend more time tgt before she moves out!

uni update

i can totally use this photo to chase off unwanted suitors... or to promote my handsome brother! hahahaha

anyway i spent most of my waking hours today coming up with my written appeal letter to NTU, and photocopied a whole chunk of testimonials and cca records. oh and i gotta prepare for my test next fri! yes, the same PE test that i've failed 3 times, i've got a final super-last chance to pass it so they can offer me PE. so i'm hoping the appeal goes thru so i can study an academic degree first, but at the same time i'm hoping i'll pass the test so if the appeal fails i won't have to be a non-PE teacher.

spent some time on my knees today, it was good:)

DAY 3

its been 2 days since i got the news of my impending doom and i've sent out 1 SOS to my church people, discussed it personally with my parents and sister, complained to most of my colleagues esp those sitting near me, called LL numerous times to mope even though she was having her last 2 papers and now she's celebrating the end of exams. after reading all the encouraging SMSes and FB msges, listening to the support from everyone else other than those who determine my near future, and looking at the situation as objectively as possible... i'm feeling better la.

despite wanting to be incredibly unmotivated since i'm being 'rejected', i've been making effort to be as BLAMELESS as i humanly can. i guess it's really a rude awakening:/ and about making effort in class (where it is almost impossible for others to monitor), thankfully my conscience and compassion for the little monsters are pushing me thru.

right. time for this new leaf of a good girl to go to bed so i can be in sch EARLY;)

i keep drinking fluids but i still feel thirsty

went for a jog after work today, cuz my colleague sent me back so i reached home like half hour earlier than expected. and since i was in shoes already. aiyo. it was pretty slow and tiring and the ipod hanged towards the end (when the music is most needed! motivation!!). but.. it felt good to have my legs moving and heart pumping. i miss running! (and my super anti-running LL screams into oblivion reading that line) you know what my music is so not the go running type of music! it's more sleepy and emo and wind down type. zzzzzzzz. i blame the sister (i koped her songs)

one of the songs from my sis itunes, its not her usual sleepy song, slightly old and country but catchy!

link: Need You Now - Lady Antebellum

Picture perfect memories
scattered all around the floor.
reaching for the phone,
cause I cant fight it anymore.

And i wonder if I ever cross your mind
for me it happens all the time

Its a quarter after one im all alone and I
need you now
said I wouldn't call
but I lost all control and I need you now,
and I dont know how I can do without
i just need you now

Another shot of whiskey
cant stop looking at the door,
wishing you'd come sweeping
in the way you did before

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind,
for me it happens all the time

Its a quarter after one im a little drunk and I
need you now
said I wouldnt call
but I lost all control and
I need you now.
and I dont know how I can do without
I just need you now...

wooh oo wooh oh

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

Its a quarter after one im all alone and I
need you now
and I said I wouldn't call
but im a little drunk and I need you now
and I dont know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now

thanks for borrowing the gym and badminton books for me dad, so sweet!

on MC

my mum was right. you can't go without enough rest and expect to be in the pink of health. i guess i need to be more responsible about taking care of myself! :/ 

sometimes my mum gives me advice which i tend to ignore, like "cut down your social activities, come home early and rest", but now i know i should heed advice coming from a true busy bee. i think my siblings n i inherited the "busy gene" from my mum, we all like to dip our hands into so many activities and have a hundred commitments. i hope we also inherited the ability to handle big projects and tons of stress from our dad! haha i know i got the "watch tv mindlessly" habit from him (prob to destress)

on other news, i failed my PPT (the PE test i took recently). sometimes i think they fail people on purpose so they have to take it a few times and pay more. but anyway it was a marked improvement! i passed every station at least, but i missed the passing grade by one. i'm actually pleasantly surprised cuz i thought i'd do worse, so i'm quite on about taking the May test. just that i need to schedule time to train for it!

k i'm gonna sleep early to prep for a long day at sch tmr! silly of me to wanna go back even tho i've MC for tmr too, but i feel bad for leaving my kids with funny relief teachers.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

celebrated my big bro's bday today!! ironically it's actually my dad's birthday today. my bro's bday was yest, but he had another appt so the girls went for dinner with my dad yest instead. haha strange yes! 

my dad's in the background in the pic above (the white hair smiling person) and my bro's in pink. if you look closely you can see the similarity in the smile and eyes!! 

see it's so fun to have 2 younger sisters to disturb you right kor!

 

 daddy's girls:)

now i realise how short my self-trimmed bangs were.

happy birthday dad and kor, love you both many many:)

marking overload

this is a picture i snapped while cycling home on tues along tamp ave 8, nice right? the field looks orange cuz of the street lights. but what caught my eye was the greenery against the backdrop of a late sunset sky... my favourite:)

this have been pretty hurried this week, i'm trying to finish up my marking and my lessons cuz we're missing 2 whole precious days of periods due to CNY. and i've been feeling so tired since monday! honestly i think the weekend was no rest for me:( i think i should slow my weekends down and take the time to really rest, not stuff it chock-full of activities like i always do. this weekend's gonna be busy again, but at least i get to hang out with my family, some good quality time:) i'm really glad that i have cool siblings i can talk to, if not every family reunion would be a terrible bore!!

bought a very festive red dress today after my dad's birthday dinner! and tmr gonna celebrate my bro's bday, steamboat again-.-''

outstanding to-dos:

1. jan rl

2. transfer $$ to shell

sibling update!!

these are my bros and sis and i love them alot! we're all close to each other in different ways and we get along pretty well. i think cuz we're all mild-tempered and quite enjoy each other's company. thanks to my dad's enforcement of sunday family dinners i suppose... check out the similarities! don't have a photo of all 4 of us tho.

ok me and my 1st bro like dun look alike right? now check this out:

hahahah... pretty cool i've like different hair for all the pics! 

ok now check out our poofy hair phase!! we look like the beatles or smth.

the 2 in front are my dad's colleagues' kids that we meet once a year for coworkers christmas dinner:)

awesome pawsome huh! time for another family pic :D this was christmas last year!

YAYY! muacks ya'll

cuts like a knife

last sunday's dinner: my 2nd bro's bday celeb

it's so strange what a powerful effect words can have! sigh but we're usually only aware of the painful cutting effect. i was stung unintentionally even though i THOUGHT i wasn't affected cuz i knew the person didn't mean to hurt me. i think it's the tone which makes it sting you know. i mean it can be smth simple, not like vulgar or like a scolding, but if the way it's said is meant to hurt, it really hurts :( i mean even the most insensitive person can be hurt by a single word. well actually insensitive people are pretty sensitive to what others say to or about them. ironic huh.

but the great thing is that words can also have a nurturing effect! i mean like a simple "well done!" or "i love you" can do amazing things to a person's well-being. of course we know that ultimately our security shouldn't be what people say or to get their approval, but everyone needs encouragement and affirmation. i'm really thankful for my dad cuz he actually says "i love you" to me every single night before i sleep (well now he usually goes to bed before me so yea).  i think all children, especially girls, need tender words of affirmation and love, particularly from a father-figure. maybe it's a reflection of our real need for our Heavenly Father's approval!

anyways we all should be careful of what we say cuz we just can't take it back...

Love ya Dad!