two-oh

despite the many events which fall on my birthday, none of which is a birthday party, i intend to have a happy birthday! no matter that i'm having a grumpy day even though my well-meaning hall friends were really nice and trying to cheer me up, and that i'm hormonally not disposed to be cheerful, and that i have to stay up to complete 20 pages of hw for tmr...

I SHALL HAVE A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Dear God, thank you for seeing me through 20 years of life on this earth. Through the ups and downs, You are always there for me, Your presence is the ultimate place of solace, rest, comfort, joy. Keep me in Your Grace, my Father. Mould me for Your use. My birthday wish, as it has been for the last 10 years: to be a woman after Your own heart, to be a blessing to others. Grant it to me, according to Your timing and will! Even as i start on a new part of this journey, keep me close to Your side. Grant me discernment. Open my eyes to Your will and may Your Word govern my heart! 

In Jesus' name, who saves us, Amen.

nights out

been coming home late and going to work early this week, and i'm pretty exhausted! bleagh. 

the nights out have been pretty good though:)

yest dinner w mel n taariq was nice n cheap, and i loved the post dinner walk n talk w riq cuz we have comfortably serious/lighthearted convos which are always so real. and i met jo for dinner today, zo n charm were sick so i forced her to meet me cuz i dressed for the occasion HAHA. it was quite refreshing! like haven't had such a long comfotable evening with a girlfriend in quite long. we talked and talked till we both got a little sleepy (might've been the beer) but it wasn't like we were gonna run out of things to say. YAY for sincere conversations! <3 <3

INCEPTION TOMORROW!!!!!

really hope i can wake up tmr for sports day/ national day celebrations! rarrr

23 more days

 

so turns out i'm included in the annual staff dinner, this year it's at THE HILTON woohooooo! and the theme is "Around the World" so i'd appreciate suggestions if not i might just wear a fruit basket on my head... it'll be a great way to end of my last day of work!

i wanna learn social ballroom dance!


you are dear to me cuz our conversations keep replaying in my head

taylor swift songs make me happy

i can't bear to end my day with a sad blog post!

so i shall tell you my achievement of the day: i spent an entire evening speaking to my friend's cousin from malaysia, who speaks only chinese, so i loosened my tongue and put my frozen hua yu to good use. impressive or what!! but what was even more awesome was how i managed to have a proper mini-conversation with that particular friend and her bro, who are usually infuriatingly SILENT. i mean, you can't elicit more than 2 syllables out of them each on good days. but TODAY it seems the bringing of their distant cousin finally gave them smth to talk about... i guess they found themselves more familiar with us then her (slightly) since they haven't seen her cousin in a couple of years and they aren't close. but the cousin is awesome, really friendly! she thought all singaporeans were as tight-lipped as her quiet cousins, around strangers at least. HAHAHAHA. 

i'm sorry

i should've held my tongue. 

....Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up. ...Be careful, however, that the exercise of your freedom does not become a stumbling block to the weak.

-1 Cor 8:1,9

bottle it up

i promise i'll blog properly over the weekend! if i'm not marking my ass off or finishing the sci-fi sequel that jeanle lent me (I <3 Ender!) all you sci-fi critics, you ain't seen anything till you read Ender's Game (and all the subsequent books in the series). proof - mel hasn't returned me one of the sequels yet (Ender's Shadow i think). okay but come to think of it she hasn't returned me alot of stuff GRRR.

alright back to marking! (i havent exactly started on today's pile but i'm going to! after i feed my growling tummy:P)

thought of the day

sometimes what you need to hear the most comes from the mouths of the most unexpected people!

cuts like a knife

last sunday's dinner: my 2nd bro's bday celeb

it's so strange what a powerful effect words can have! sigh but we're usually only aware of the painful cutting effect. i was stung unintentionally even though i THOUGHT i wasn't affected cuz i knew the person didn't mean to hurt me. i think it's the tone which makes it sting you know. i mean it can be smth simple, not like vulgar or like a scolding, but if the way it's said is meant to hurt, it really hurts :( i mean even the most insensitive person can be hurt by a single word. well actually insensitive people are pretty sensitive to what others say to or about them. ironic huh.

but the great thing is that words can also have a nurturing effect! i mean like a simple "well done!" or "i love you" can do amazing things to a person's well-being. of course we know that ultimately our security shouldn't be what people say or to get their approval, but everyone needs encouragement and affirmation. i'm really thankful for my dad cuz he actually says "i love you" to me every single night before i sleep (well now he usually goes to bed before me so yea).  i think all children, especially girls, need tender words of affirmation and love, particularly from a father-figure. maybe it's a reflection of our real need for our Heavenly Father's approval!

anyways we all should be careful of what we say cuz we just can't take it back...

Love ya Dad!